Wednesday, March 28, 2012

A Change in Our Days

It has been two months now since my RADish started going to work with my husband. Every day. Her lessons and discipleship are completely his. Things had begun to really spiral. (Worse than usual) She's really struggled lately relationally and behaviorally. We had gotten to the point where she couldn't really play with anyone or go anywhere without us being 3 feet away from her. I was exhausted and started to really hurt physically. My husband is primarily responsible for her discipleship and education and knew right now I couldn't come alongside him in it.

The first couple of weeks were hard on her. She would be ok during the day with daddy, but then wreak havoc on me and the house when she was home. It was hard to respond and not react. But we got into a good groove of not reacting to her attempts at control. When she saw that she had lost all (ok most) of the control over me that she has had, she turned to old behaviors. . . and worse. Primarily with food and lying.

It's been hard, but a recent visit from a friend cheered her heart. She has bravely asked that I would have a few people pray for her to overcome these challenges. This is huge for a RADish. They like to charm and woo the outside world in a superficial way. Then they save all of the angry behaviors for mom and dad. To step out and actually invite a few trusted people into her scary world, is so very brave.

I totally understand that not all husbands are capable within their job structure to make such a move. We needed to make a change. She needed to be under Daddy's authority more intimately. As Dawn also did something similarly to this awhile back. Their tutor was this for them. Her RADish couldn't shadow Daddy, but she could bring in a tutor for a subject that was causing much strife between them relationally. We knew for both our families, home schooling was the right choice. Even with RADishes. We also knew things couldn't stay exactly the same. These were good changes for us.

Is there one area over others that is bringing a great deal of strife? Try bringing in some help in that area to bring some amount of peace.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Reader's Letter

We received a letter (and a heart photo) from a reader and thought it would be an encouragement so we are passing it on with her permission.


I faithfully read and love letting you know my "Miss Romania" is almost 18 this year, in one month. It has been one little crazy journey but it is our life and we chose never to give up. Having no other children at first we knew no other life. After all the tears, scars, deafening screams, fights, attacks and emotional stabs... She is attaching. She told me she never wanted to move from her happy place in our home. She begs me to hold her hand when we watch tv now, sitting on the ground below me, and holds onto my finger like a little baby when I drive the car. When we get out of the car she wants to hold my hand, proud that we have a relationship, and not afraid at the age of 18 to hold mama's hand in public. She almost demands my hand at times so she can prove to the world that we are one and she is loved. She spontaneously hugs and tells me she loves me and acknowledges that she put our family through a lot.

She lies less about needless things, and confronts her behavior with an appropriate reaction of sorrow.

Although she's grounded from her phone and computer at present, it has nothing to do with her behavior or lack of appropriate behavior with her family. She did normal crazy teenage things.

I've put her and her sister together in situations where they have to work together. Last Saturday she went to R's fashion show and went in the back with all the other models to help her sister dress and keep everything in order. They were both pleased at their teamwork, even R was shocked. I didn't go to watch my daughter because I wanted to see how they could be together without killing one another with words and painful hits. It is happening.

Yes we still have those days, they are so far between now it isn't so painful. Yes she still has her moments. But we are becoming whole. But in saying that, it is with a small wall that is lowered ever so slowly.

Monday, March 26, 2012

Deep Aches

I look into my daughter's eyes. She is angry. At her birthmother. At her birth country. At her orphanage. She takes it out on me as if I committed those sins against her. I try and love her and she pushes me away.

How can a child that rejects even the love of tangible, physical earthly parents, accept the love of an unseen God.

It will take a miracle. This will be the work of Christ.


Do you have or work with a child who laughs at sad things? Or maybe they look grumpy when they really aren't feeling grumpy in the slightest. Or, one who freezes at times...showing no emotion at all?

Well, I know this brilliant lady who came up with a brilliant idea...Mr. Moe!

I have two Mr. Moe key chains to give away. One pink...the other blue.

If you would like to enter the DRAWING...leave a comment here (by Monday 4/2 noon EST) w/your color preference.

Then...we'll have a drawing and pull two names.

We hope you win!!!!!!!!

And, don't forget to spread the word about Mr. Moe.

Friday, March 9, 2012

Adoption in the News

Another article. Thoughts? Respond anonymously if you'd like.

Attachment Parenting in the News

Interesting article.