Hiding

Lament happens within the context of relationship and trust. 

One of the most painful things to watch is a person who is closed to receiving love go through a struggle.  On their own. 

They would benefit from a hug.  But don't know how to ask for one.  And when one is offered.  They reject it.  

It's too scary to hug...too close.

Too much intimacy.
Wanting a hug means I might need a hug. 
I don't deserve a hug. 
If I get a hug...I might not be able to stop providing for and protecting myself & then what if I want more hugs?
What if my walls crumble?
What if the hug is the key to actually allowing myself to confront the thing I am running from?
What if ....

Our pastor recently killed it with his message.  A message seeping with so much honesty & clarity...so much simplicity and loving brutality when he said..."If you are hiding from your friends...you just might be hiding from God."  

Goes for family members too.  Hiding from your family?

The rawness of it...kills me.  It is so absolutely true.  

Darkness tries to hide.